I Forgot...

I forgot how opening up makes me vulnerable. 
I forgot  how easily it is to think things are perfectly fine, when they're not really fine at all.
I forgot that loving someone doesn't mean they'll love you in return.
I forgot that loving someone doesn't mean they always respect you. 

Holly Hair

Dear Hair,

I love and hate you in equal amounts.  Why have you chosen now to have one of your spaz attacks?  I've been very kind to you as of late.  I've treated you as a cherished member of my body and yet you flip my the proverbial bird and throw yourself too and fro like a drunken sailor.  Is this truly necessary?  You know he's looking forward to seeing you grow.  He's expecting something more than just your half assed attempt at looking okay.

Right now, I can't decide who I'm getting more annoyed with.  You and your antics, or him and his damn hopes.

Baby It's Cold Outside

The snow storm has passed but the hassles, cancellations and delays continue today.  In GTA, Toronto recorded the largest single-day snowfall — which led to school bus cancellations in the Toronto District and Catholic school boards.  Meteorologist Jill Taylor said around 26.4 centimetres of snow was recorded at Pearson International Airport on Monday, breaking the record of 13.4 centimetres set on that date in 2009.  But the last time Toronto had more than 20 centimetres of snow in a single day was 51 years ago — 20.8 centimetres on Jan. 14, 1968.  The GTA, including Toronto, was under a snowfall warning on Monday evening, but that has since been lifted.

The massive snowstorm caused major issues for all public transit, including busses.  Regardless as to your travel methods you'll want to prepare for longer than normal travel times due to the weather.  The northbound lanes of the DVP were shut down for several hours overnight due to poor weather conditions.  It has since reopened.  OPP Sgt. Kerry Schmidt sa id there were approximately 300 crashes in the past 24 hours in the GTA and surrounding area.  Meteorologists say it will continue to be windy on today with blowing and drifting snow, which I can attest to as I have three foot drifts across my driveway and backyard.. There will be some sunny breaks, but the GTA could get some more flurries late in the afternoon or early evening.  Although the temperature was relatively mild this morning, temperatures will fall to -9 C this afternoon.  The wind chill will be near -30 overnight. 

The frigid weather will continue into Wednesday and it will feel like -30 C with the wind.  So bundle up if you have to go out, but if you're one of the lucky ones who can stay in, do so.  Get out those fluffy blankets and watch movies and drink hot tea and coco until spring arrives.

Then I remembered...

Rescues are funny things.  Be it non-profits or those earning a living from rescuing.  One would think there would be a huge distinction between them, or even a distinction between those who rescue and those who do not.  I've come to find that like all else in life, morons abound in every group and every walk of life.  Rescue included.

I was actually quite saddened and rather mad too.  Then I remembered, I  hate humans and expect no less than utter disappointment and horrific behaviours from them.

Superman Punch

Overtime is, well it's a load of crap but a necessary load of crap.  Domina and I just so happened to get the chance to work together for it.  By the time 6am rolled around she and I were so very over it.  Every last second of it.  So naptime was a blessing and as tired as we were, I conned both she and The Pirate into heading out to the movies.  Ahh the sweet stench of 'the public' is a reminder as to why the three of us like our homes ever so much, and yet we did laugh.  We did have fun, and we did stay till the end.

Glass was not their favourite, but they endured it all for me.  Bless their collective hearts.  We, after The Pirate hustled me at pool hunkered down and endured the 30 minutes of bloody commercials.  The highlight of the evening, other than the copious amounts of popcorn we threw at each other was the "Superman Punch".  It was a moment that left all others in the theater glaring at us and quite possibly deciding that we three heatheans were certainly well upon our way to damnation. 

I Lock The Door

There's a running joke, not really funny ha ha; or maybe it is to them.  They don't understand, how could they?  They are not mind readers and I am not one to talk about it at great length.  It's simpler to just, lock the door.

"You afraid there's a boogie man?"  They joke.  I simply smile and lock the door.  They shake their heads, and tease, "no ones going to rob this house!"  I simply smile, and lock the door.

I lock the door because I'm not her.
I lock the door because home is supposed to be a safe place.
I lock the door because I don't want to talk.
I lock the door because I don't want to hear it.
I lock the door because this is mine.
I lock the door because I don't like them.
I lock the door because I don't trust them.
I lock the door for privacy.
I lock the door because they are disrespectful.
I lock the door for my own sanity.
I lock the door because I don't want to share...
I lock the door because I protect what's mine.
I lock the door because I am tired...
I lock the door because they are racists.
I lock the door so I can breathe.
I lock the door so I can cry.
I lock the door because I don't feel safe.

You laugh.  I'll smile and simply lock the door.

I'm Not Her

My door won't be unlocked.  My possessions aren't going to be openly shared.  My ears aren't going to be there to listen.  I do not wish to spend my free time in your company, and you are not free to just ask for anything your heart desires. 

I'm not her. 

I don't like you, nor do I owe you anything.  I don't trust you.  I find you lacking in every facet of your life.  You're a failure at life, and much like your trash; I want it kept on your side of the fence.