Holy Hannah

Now there are many things I am comfortable with, yes this includes my weight gain from time to time. I am not however comfortable with noticing such a drastic increase in weight gain only to understand that this occurred in a relatively short time and the only reason for such an increase is that I had to have been reaching for comfort foods instead of facing reality. Never a good thing. That isn’t the person I wish to be nor is it a healthy way to go through life.

I need to come first again.

Insecticide

My 'boss', club owner that is. She's not really the boss of much inside or outside of work to be blunt. So she standing in the office saying, "blah blah blah" something so-cally important and I'm glancing at her out of the corner of my eye. I can't take much more. I'm going to take my shoe off any minute and just beat her to death with it. Then it hits me. I turn around and start flicking the light switch on and off and on and off, and she's getting all twitchy, so I flick the lights on and leave them on and she scurry's away. I was right all along. She really is a cockroach.

To The Dogs

It’s what the day had gone to and in the best possible of ways. I had fun, the children had fun and then some, and the dogs; they are now passed out cold. That is a sure fire way to know they had fun.

Nervous

I haven’t spent any time with these people, at least not in the past 10 years. I don’t really know them anymore. They don’t really know me either. Are they just as nervous, or is it just me? Just because we happened to share a last name for a time doesn't actually make us "family".

Good Friday, Goodness

Not being a Christian I am of course not doing anything of great importance today. At least not what many would consider important. I happen to believe that I am doing something far more important than going to service, or preparing for a large dinner in his honor. No, I have the distinct pleasure of spending some extreme quality time with my children, whom at this moment are proving to be rather surprising. Teens, teens whom are related, are in fact getting along. Their laughter, kind treatment of one another, and politeness that I have always known was there, however hidden, is shining through. I'm not certain how long it will last so I am being careful not to interrupt it in the slightest.

Later I'm dressing like a nun and going bar hopping.

Sleepy For A While

I was set to close my eyes and drift into the place between sleep and wakefulness, that beautiful place where everything is soft and just slightly out of focus. I tend to enjoy that momentary place of peace before I become dead to the world. It didn't work out like that though. Just as I entered into the realm of bliss I was shoved out of it with jarring clarity as the phone rang sharply beside my ear. It was time to get on the road and join the other million holiday travelers. Joy. To my surprise it ended up being a pretty fast road. The winds were hell in truth but I managed just fine. By nine thirty we were back and the laughter and lightheartedness seemed to seep out of every pore as we chatted and caught up with the past weeks events. For once I wasn't bitter about being pulled from my bed.

Hesitant

The trust isn't there like it should be. We take cautious steps back and forth in a dance that often times resembles a tango, while other's it's a complex fox trot that leaves us breathless and spent. I prefer the tango of course, but with each new step we take there is always something different and hesitant. Will we ever learn to move with that fluid grace that comes from two people whom completely trust not only each other but themselves as well?