Like Your Reflection

Don’t place great expectations upon others. Invest your feelings into people, without expecting them to feel or do the same. Always give room for hope, but let thing occur in time. Don't rush. Never let anyone into your life so quickly that they do not appreciate what you have to offer. Mind your own business. Mind your own health.

Always embrace growth. Grow both physically and mentally. If you cannot change your circumstances, as many cannot immediately. Change your outlook. Appreciate your struggle. Be grateful on the stuff you already have. Work on those things. Perfect those things. Don’t add unnecessary stress to your life, or to others. Focus on being your authentic self.

Make love.

Daily.

Pondering

Human relationships are strange. I mean, you are with one person a while, eating and sleeping and living with them, loving them, talking to them, going places together, and then it stops
—  Charles Bukowski

 He wants. I want. We're not sure if those wants can mesh at this time. My gut tells me, it will be over before it begins. I will not fall, not even a chance.

I'm a girl

It is a frightening thought, that in one fraction of a moment you can fall in the kind of love that takes a lifetime to get over.

I don’t know how to describe myself exactly, but for as liberated as I am; I don’t like random hook ups. I’m a joker, but moreover I'm a lover and just can’t do the whole one night stand thing, and feel good about it. I also don’t like clubs/parties, I prefer drinks, laughter and just chilling with friends or doing something else that doesn’t involve obnoxious people yelling in my ear because the background noise is so damn loud. My idea of a perfect date is just getting dinner, go to the movies, grab dessert and then go back home and watch shows and cuddle. I also like to work out. Yes, I can be a lazy ass but once I’m in the gym I go hard. I'm the girl with the brain and sex drive of a guy, who wants to be cuddled and made to feel safe.

Exhaust Me

It's all fun and games until your jeans don't fit any longer.  

I've not been able to get into the gym for a few weeks and it's killing me. Possibly literally. It also makes me a little grumpy. For me, personally the gym isn't just about getting fit physically. It's about being healthy all round. When I've pushed myself to my limits, exhausted every fiber of my being, mentally and physically I am at my best. Building blocks.

It truly is a beautiful thing.

Even Dancing Ninja's Stumble

It's okay JLaw, I didn't even have the excuse of wearing a big flouncy dress.

Catlike super human ninja skills failed me last night as I came down the stairs. A coughing fit combined with an absence seizure, brought back the reality of my all to human qualities. My butt, back, shoulder, forearm, and legs met the edge of the hardwood stairs with equal and unsettling force. It was a fine moment of grace, beauty, and sheer willpower to stay conscious. Today I move rather slowly, and the excess padding upon my posterior lets me know that even excess padding cannot replace non slip soles. Or happenstance. Standing is a great option today. Not moving at all is a better option still.

Where's Sheldon to sing me "Soft kitty" when I need him?

487 Days

"A delicious night to be alive," came the softly spoken words. The dance complete, the steps lost to memory, lingering cologne on pillows, and dreams of tomorrow. It all burns so bright before gradually fading to a wistful longing. Grown men have turned away shielding their gaze from the raw emotion before them, and still...we remain.

Longing for more.

Temptation

You cannot lead me to the forbidden places, that I don't want to go. You simply cannot tempt me.
I will always be able to say no. Just turn that corner and walk away. I'll follow my own path. What's meant to be, will always be. There is no need to rush. In the dark I'll find you once more. but right now you mustn't touch.