Self care is an important part of anyone's life. Many forget that, or choose to ignore it; I know for many years I did. I no longer do that. I know and understand that if I am unable to care for myself then I am most certainly unable to care for anyone else. Lessons learned.
Yesterday and today still, I am not in the mood to listen to others trivial bulshit. I don't want to hear how hard it is for you to be apart from your girlfriend, or how you just don't like having to do those dishes that other leave lying around. Those are all fixable things. Easily fixable things. They aren't the end of the world. They are temporary issues, and your sitting around complaining about them isn't going to change any of it. We all have little issues, triggers if you will; but they are on us to correct them. So do it.
I've a loved one whom likes to whine and complain about those issues. Of course this complaining can continue nonstop for an hour easily. It is an hour of my time I am not willing to give up.
"Where do they teach you to talk like this? In some Panama City "Sailor wanna hump-hump" bar, or is it getaway day and your last shot at his whiskey? Sell crazy someplace else, we're all stocked up here." -As Good As It Gets
I am not answering the phone, nor am I taking in visitors. I am grieving and will do so for as long as I need to. No complaining, no explaining. Those that decide to throw hissy fits over it, well they can go pound rock-salt. Zero fucks will be given. Zero. Decide what you want out of your life and then make it happen. Today I will cry, today I will laugh, today I will simply be. Tomorrow I will go back to work, and I will smile when and where I need to. I will be an active member of society, and I will fake it to the very best of my ability.
Tomorrow.
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